life doesn't get any sweeter than this.

my love’s too big for you my love

.. and if i was stronger then i would tell you no. and if i was stronger then i would leave this show. and if i was stronger then i would up and go. but here i am and here we go again.

-ingrid michaelson

another dead relationship.. ended.

It’s almost the new year and all I can do is think about what I’ve done with my life. I have all these questions that I keep asking myself: have I been a good person/daughter/sister? have I worked up to my potential? can I do more..?

I found out today that my aunt has stage III breast cancer. To those who don’t know what that means, it’s pretty bad. It’s beating up my mom quite a bit; it’s so hard to comfort her right now. I’m so afraid to hold her because I know the minute I do, it’ll just be a wave of emotions that I don’t think I can handle. I’m bursting at the seams, trying to hold back the tears, while all I really want and need to do — is cry.

In a time like this, running away and hiding seems like the right choice. I want to be selfish. I don’t want to deal with the pain. But, times like these make us realize how life is precious and how much we’ve taken for granted all the things that are within our reach.

Life’s too short to live with regrets, so here’s the resolutions for the new year:

  1. Tell my family how much I truly appreciate them and how much I love them, EVERYDAY, especially my mom.
  2. Complain less. Work harder.
  3. Give back to the community.
  4. Say “Thank you.” I’m sure all of us have someone to thank. We could have not made it this far on our own.
  5. Stop worrying so much. Let life take its course.
  6. Appreciate and accept what you have. Don’t chase after things that don’t exist or you don’t have; if you’re patient, good things will come.
  7. Don’t make irrational decisions. Think. Talk. Decide.
  8. Smile more. Smiling is contagious.
  9. Be honest and thoughtful.
  10. Love. Just love.
  11. Make a good day, instead of hoping for one.
  12. Learn to let go, but also learn to take risks.
  13. Move on. It’s easy to let go, but hard to step forward. It’s ok to miss someone. Just be thankful and happy that they were once a part of your life.
  14. Quit smoking. I don’t want to die.
  15. Last, but not least, BE HAPPY.
“sometimes, you have to let go of the good things to catch the great ones.”

i need to stop wanting more than i already have. i can’t have everything. i can’t be everything. i don’t need anything.. except maybe my sanity.

when am i going to believe that?

“I have always found the misfortunes of others hilarious, because they’re not me. If there’s such a thing as karma, I’m fucking doomed.”
— Apathy and other small victories by Paul Neilan

i don’t know how to feel today. happy, excited, confused, hurt..?

memories should be forbidden.it makes you overthink what’s already happened.

jonnytran: Be My Primary Key (via kyle-burton) this is so cute..! wait… does that say “let’s replicate”..? umm yea =P

jonnytran:

Be My Primary Key (via kyle-burton)

this is so cute..! wait… does that say “let’s replicate”..? umm yea =P


..rest in peace Randy Pausch.

jonnytran:

Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams — Randy Pausch’s Last Lecture

This is so worth watching again. … How can you wake up in the morning and not chase your Dreams?

For those hungering for more, watch his commencement address. Shorter, but just as dense in value.

probably the best talk i’ve ever heard in my life.