January 2011
1 post
my love's too big for you my love
.. and if i was stronger then i would tell you no. and if i was stronger then i would leave this show. and if i was stronger then i would up and go. but here i am and here we go again.
-ingrid michaelson
another dead relationship.. ended.
December 2009
2 posts
It’s almost the new year and all I can do is think about what I’ve done with my life. I have all these questions that I keep asking myself: have I been a good person/daughter/sister? have I worked up to my potential? can I do more..?
I found out today that my aunt has stage III breast cancer. To those who don’t know what that means, it’s pretty bad. It’s beating up...
“sometimes, you have to let go of the good things to catch the great ones.”
July 2009
1 post
i need to stop wanting more than i already have. i can’t have everything. i can’t be everything. i don’t need anything.. except maybe my sanity.
when am i going to believe that?
August 2008
3 posts
“I have always found the misfortunes of others hilarious, because they’re...”
– Apathy and other small victories by Paul Neilan
i don’t know how to feel today. happy, excited, confused, hurt..?
memories should be forbidden.it makes you overthink what’s already happened.
July 2008
2 posts
..rest in peace Randy Pausch.
June 2008
19 posts
The Week-end
Snow Patrol definitely took the words right out of my mouth:
“The perfect words never crossed my mind because there was nothing in there, but you. Every ounce of my was screaming out, but the sound was trapped deep in me.”
FEAR. It hinders people from acting upon what they believe they should do, and for a long time, it prevented me from speaking up about my emotions— until...
“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is...”
– Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
“You know the seven, don’t ya? That you can’t say on TV? Shit, piss,...”
– George Carlin, one of the greatest comedians that ever lived
What Drug Should You Try? →
supposedly, i should try LSD.
“The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing that you...”
– Elbert Hubbard
“Ultimately the bond of all companionship, whether in marriage or in friendship,...”
– Oscar Wilde
WAKE n' BACON →
i want this.
canned bacon →
my friend suggested we buy this for our camping trip. i’ll be dead by sunday.
…, “every word you say, i think i should write down. don’t want to forget come daylight…” you should know.
“Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who...”
doni: I’ll try to think happy thoughts me: hahha don’t try, just do doni: lol ok el :P i should take my own advice.
May 2008
13 posts
how can someone be happy and sad at the same time? i don’t know. what i do know is that i am, and i can’t tell if it hurts or if doesn’t.
dear …, “and maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.” oh, if you only knew.
dear …, “so glide away and so be healed, and promise not to promise anymore. and if you come around again, then i will take the chain from off the door.” if you only knew.
..in the end, i'm unhappy.
I’m getting pretty tired of trying to make everyone happy. I didn’t realize how much stress I was placing on myself until I found myself crying. I love my family and I love my friends, but do I love them enough to hurt myself this much? Sometimes I wonder if they even appreciate all the things I’ve done for them.
“When you’re frustrated with people, when they’ve made you angry, it...”
– The Last Lecture
the root of video game addictions.. →
emotions 03.30
my efforts are futile what is my reason for existing to hurt and be hurt? what am i doing? you’ve already left me to wallow in my misery you’ve already buried me six feet under; six feet of dirt
forgive, forget, for what?
It’s amazing how people can turn the blind eye when they believe they are truly in love. Mistakes are easily forgiven. The wrongs are easily forgotten. What does that give anyone? A heap of heart ache. I won’t lie; I’ve forgiven and forgotten before. But it’s not me I’m concern about at the moment. I’ve met someone who might be in the process of forgiving and...
who do you follow?
friend:… I find myself doing that sometimes, if I think of someone I did not like, or who always goofed off, I look to see where their life went friend: ha that sounds so awful and petty me: hahaha, its ok.. people do it me: i think i do it what wasn’t mentioned here is that she also wanted to see if she was doing better in her life than they were.. but then again, when i think about...
loss
i guarantee that you will miss me maybe not now, but in time, you will and when you do, you will realize your loss on letting me go, on setting me free
April 2008
6 posts
“I have a problem with self-esteem, which is really ridiculous when you consider...”
love song for no one
John Mayer wrote a song called “Love Song for No One”, and it pretty much describes what I’m thinking and feeling. staying home alone on a friday flat on the floor looking back on old love, or lack thereof after all the crushes are faded and all my wishful thinking was wrong i’m jaded, i hate it i’m tired of being alone so hurry up and get here so tired of...
Really? I miss you...?
I don’t know what’s happening to me. For some reason I’m missing someone I barely know; having feelings for him, knowing full well that he bears no emotions for me. Maybe it’s the loneliness getting to me. All of my friends are all happily in relationships; and here I am being the 9th wheel. I know I should be content with what I have. My life isn’t bad at all. If...
March 2008
3 posts
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“to realize one’s destiny is a person’s only obligation”